hey... ive been thinking alot...
so.. yeah.. firstly or mostly i thought about all my past memories..
ermm how shld i start?.. well..every experience that we have is encoded in our brains...this is certainly true from the day we are born, and many people believe that we also have access to past life experiences. now2 tell me... what is the purpose of filing away all that data? tho we are unaware of it, our unconscious dictates many of our life decisions as our unconscious has access to all of these memories and when we work to bring awareness to the memories that are dictating our decisions, we are able to make conscious choices about our lives.. heh.. ive gt lotsa memorise.. the good one tend to cheer me up and the bad will always remind me to be careful in future..

what about forgiveness? to forgive is divine. it is a trait that we learn from our creator... he has shown us that is possible to repent from our sins and that we can forgive others as well. Forgiveness is more than saying the words "I forgive you".... If you still harbor hatred in your heart this is not true forgiveness....
in order to truly forgive you must put yourself in the other person's place, you must try to understand how they could do such a thing to you... When you understand what has led them to that act, you may be able truly forgive them. and i seek forgiveness to those i've hurt throughout my life.. lets forgive and forget shall we?

another thing that makes me think is about change... yup people change for better or worse..
all of us experience change in our lives... change is the one constant in our lives... there are changes that we look forward too and change that we fear... however, one thing is for sure, things will not stay the same no matter how much we would like them too... when a life change occurs, we have two choices in how to respond to it... we can despair that a change has come and assume that things will be worse, or we can look with excitement at the new possibilities that the change presents...

oh and i smell fear... i don't know what kind of fear it is, and all i know is that fear is a part of life... it is part of the range of feelings that humans experience on a daily basis... in some culture, fear has come to be experienced as negative however, the truth is that fear is a perfectly normal feeling to experience and we would all feel a lot better if we simply allowed ourselves to feel it fully and if we do not, we will have somatic symptoms of fear that are much more painful than simply allowing the feeling to be felt. i think i was just being a GUNDU~ to hv this fear of losing someone i love etc.. haix. or fear to move on? fear to im not sure what. peeeggh~

like i said before.. fear is part of life.. and life is the sum of experiences that we encounter as we go through life and day by day to struggles and triumphs are experienced by all of the world's creatures and as a human beings, when we encounter a challenge, we have freedom to choose of how to react... every decision that we make leads us down another road. we will never come to exactly the same crossroads coz every decision that we make has significance. heh.

oh wells i did type a lot.. that means i really did spend my time thinking and thinking but I've nvr sort all of it.. am i right?

basically im trying to gt myself up and gt my brain function back like the old me..heh.
yes yes let the evil soul out of my body ehk kite? LOL Silly matrep!
ok2..
shall not post too wordy and sad stories anymore ok?
from tomorrow onwards.. i shall start with the brand new me..
ayte till i blog again ppl!

ps: PIG!!!! appreciate all of ur so called "SPEECH ADVICE"... thank you very much! :)))))

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