Been long since i last post something on this blog. lost of interest.. maybe.. lols
and of course.. frgt password yada yada...
anyway im not gonna blabber much for now.. trying to get use to blogging again. InsyaAllah if i got the time.. i shall update more as i really do miss blogging..
oh and it's the second day of Ramadhan now.. and it's the first year i cant join others fasting as i am sick. :( see...? alot of things happened and lotsa changes in my daily life..
gtg will update more.. hehe~
Tuesday, October 04, 2011
Perhaps the most important thing we bring to another person is the silence in us, not the sort of silence that is filled with unspoken criticism or hard withdrawal. The sort of silence that is a place of refuge, of rest, of acceptance of someone as they are. We are all hungry for this other silence. It is hard to find. In its presence we can remember something beyond the moment, a strength on which to build a life. Silence is a place of great power and healing.
I would write a book on why I love you, but by the time I die, I still wouldn't have finished the first chapter.
Friday, August 05, 2011
I'm tired of hiding my pain. I'm sick of having to deal with my emotions anymore. I just want to dive off a cliff. As if anyone would notice.
if i have to live my life without you loving me whats the point of living it.
If you can give up on us, then so can I...on ______
I'm too scared to let go, but I'm not strong enough to hold on. Anytime now.. Anytime...
Nobody's wrong, No one see I'm not so strong Everytime I hope I'm dreaming... I'm missing you... I'm touching you But you can't feel, I scream at you But you can't hear.. I just need to be around you, I'm lost without you You are so special, So give me some passion I need to tell you I'm watching you. I am crying for so long I can't breath without your love It's so wrong that I'm without you.. I'm missing you Goodbye you all, Goodbye my friends So goodbye You ...my baby... You ...my baby...
Thursday, August 04, 2011
Nobody cares, nobody can see whats going on deep down inside of me...But if you could, you would know I am so ready to go.
Wednesday, March 09, 2011
Being in love:
Difficulty. As in you're gonna end up fighting more than half the time, then the next like nothing ever happened at all. Spending one moment crying yourself to sleep, the next non-stop laughter. Then full of frustration, next filled with joy. Some moments talking about what great future you two have planned ahead, then the next with no future at all. When you feel like you've completely given up, but you can't let go. Half the time you're so damn sure of what it is then the next you just absolutely have no clue anymmore. Half of us will pretend like it's the perfect little thing. But really, it's the most unperfect thing there could ever be.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
I had a great time with the biz Bonding I yesterday tho not alot came still we shared some quality time. :)
Thanks Matthew for joining us, I wish to see more leaders on the 6th Jan coz its the mass training for all sch and i can see that biz need more manpower.
I had Food poisoning once i reach home, Tham's gonna complaint at NEA. lol.
Food poisoning sucks okay to add on more bonus to this shitty issue, i had fever and flu all in one go. Thanks aaarr~
Ayte took med and now resting at home.
Will blog again soon.
Anyway would like to thank Ah Ting for the Christmas gif
t, so sweet of her! :)
Thanks and Merry Xmas Ting Ting!
Friday, December 24, 2010
where are you?
you move my mind even by looking at your back
you love me like my heart will explode
where are you?
whisper to me now
I love you...
Will you reply me this?
im right next to you
even if you don't know
my heart will explode loving you always
im here next to you
i want to say now
I love you.
i wish you would....
im just waiting to explode. :(
Ya Allah please guide me, i don't want the old me to come back and haunt me.
I don't want to see ppl around me suffer.
I don't want my heart closed again like before.
I don't want to be the hard hearted mean girl again and neither be too soft hearted.
my eyes are swollen, now i can't lie to anyone that im sick coz it's been two days of non stop crying alone... can't even cry it out loud. Yes im crying every second, my eyes were red, my face don't even need to describe it. im so crushed, im having alot of thing to think, My heart, Him, my family, business, work, friends and i don't know which i need to put first. Because everything is important to me.
When the time you really need him and he's not there to even be a friend who always be there for me. tsk.
can you just stop pushing me? i have so much to think.
all i want is now is just a friend, a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on.
I don't wanna fght no more.
Meanwhile i pity Mosha, she fall down and hurt herself pretty bad. I assume she went for her part time 007 again and she fall. Why did u have to all this?? why? Please be strong because if u are not i might just follow your footsteps too. :(((((
Everything is damn chaotic!!
how can i change the big head monster to normal? :(